Sunday, February 15, 2009

Branden Scott

So I'm writing on here because I know that you will never see it.  I am so incredibly lonely without you.  I don't know how to get you back.  I literally dream and think about you constantly.  I feel like loving you is torture.  I can't catch my breath when I think of you and I nervously chew away at my lower lip wondering if you will ever come back.  I wish you would trust me.  I don't know how I am supposed to be with anyone else.  I keep trying to move on, but I can't.  My heart only wants you and no one else will compare.  Ugh, I'm so frustrated.  I know that I will be alone forever.  You will move on...you already have.  I am so happy for you that you are going to be a father and I want nothing but the best for you.  I go to sleep just so I can dream about you and feel you.  Why can't people who are meant to be together just be?  I know that some part of you still feels the same.  Please come back.  I just want to touch you.  I just want you to make me laugh.  I don't truly laugh about anything anymore....not like when I was with you.  I was stupid and young.  Please forgive me.  I need you, to be me.