Sunday, February 15, 2009
So I'm writing on here because I know that you will never see it. I am so incredibly lonely without you. I don't know how to get you back. I literally dream and think about you constantly. I feel like loving you is torture. I can't catch my breath when I think of you and I nervously chew away at my lower lip wondering if you will ever come back. I wish you would trust me. I don't know how I am supposed to be with anyone else. I keep trying to move on, but I can't. My heart only wants you and no one else will compare. Ugh, I'm so frustrated. I know that I will be alone forever. You will move on...you already have. I am so happy for you that you are going to be a father and I want nothing but the best for you. I go to sleep just so I can dream about you and feel you. Why can't people who are meant to be together just be? I know that some part of you still feels the same. Please come back. I just want to touch you. I just want you to make me laugh. I don't truly laugh about anything anymore....not like when I was with you. I was stupid and young. Please forgive me. I need you, to be me.